HARBOURED FEELINGS OF MICHAEL

MICHAELS HARBOUR-ED ANGER

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I get to write this memoir, of a man who I adored while watching him sleep.  The story his face told would make one want to weep. So many thoughts running through his head making him wonder when he would be dead? I didn't know those were his worries at the time, but it showed in his face as he spoke the words and his face would twist like a lime. The story runs deep so take a leap of faith with me, and just hear him out. Then he will allow me the clout to give perspective on his personal journey.  Everyone seems to think that everyone around us is always crazy or is it that we are just too lazy to not stop and actually listen. The story is told through the mind of a very intelligent kind sweet gentle hurt angry confused gentleman. Someone I call a very dear friend.

His name alone, MICHAEL HARBOUR speaks volumes. As the story unfolds you will learn all that he has harboured.

         HARBOURED FEELINGS OF MICHAEL 

No matter where I go there's people watching, cars on the sidelines, people talking.  I know that they're all here for me, I know this has to be something from my past, and my life probably won't last.  Do they want my money,  my job? Is this revenge? I guess you could say I deserve it, but I come from a time where you protect your family, your beliefs, your friends. 

I Came from gangs galore.  Ive committed crimes on other people's dimes.  I've committed them on my clock, using my own glock.  Judge away all that you want.  I personally don't give a fuck, but deep down I really do.  I'm willing to make amends, even become friends, and end the hate.  People being irate, just shooting others up to make them dissipate.  Wanting back up so bad, so that way I know I can survive.  I can't tell anyone the story without them wanting to make it gory.  I then have to convince them to let me set it straight, before we open up the floodgates of hell and ring their fucking bells!

I've got so much to look forward to, my beautiful grandchildren, my grown babies.  Even my beautiful ex wife, who I still adore.  I just do it from afar.  She set the higher bar.  I want the chance to love again, maybe even help get the world on a mend. I want to travel and see parts of the world that are unforeseen, by many around the nations. They are hidden little stations of heaven, on earth.  Where I feel like I could possibly be rebirthed!

(HOLY SHYT)

The game of trust in this world is a total bust.  Everyone lies, and denies, then steals for the next deals.  I'm afraid to even give hugs, out of fear they're only hear for the drugs.  Even a simple kiss feels like a huge miss. 

FUCK ALL THIS SHIT, THAT DON'T MATTER, FUCK THE LOVE, FUCK YOU, FUCK THEM, FUCK EVERYONE! BACK TO THE REAL HEART OF THE ISSUE!  

THESE MOTHER FUCKERS WHO SEEM TO BE SOMEONE'S PERSONAL EYE IN THE SKY!  IS IT A FED?  IS IT SOME EX, WHO DIDN'T GIVE GOOD HEAD?  THIS SHITS FUCKING FOR REAL PEOPLE. THEY SAY THAT I SOUND PARANOID.  THEY'RE JUST SIMPLY LOOKING TO AVOID THE REAL DEAL IN THE STREETS. THEY FLEET FROM THEIR OWN REALITY, NOT KNOWING THAT EVERY LAST ONE IS PROBABLY DOOMED. BUT BECAUSE OF WHO? ME? YOU? MY DOG BLUE? AGAIN FUCK THIS, FUCK THAT, I DON'T CARE, JUST WANT OUT OF HERE!   I HATE EVERYONE, I HATE YOU, I HATE THEM.  I HIDE WITH THE MUSIC THAT COMES FROM MY HEADPHONES, TRYING TO FIND ANYTHING TO AVOID THESES AWFUL THOUGHTS!

A KARMA MICHAELS PERSPECTIVE?

  When you originally listened to him talk you simply think he must have been up for a while maybe been on and ultimate high maybe possibly paranoid but then I remind myself that no one will hear my story either, so I really stopped and listened.  Everything he speaks on is legit and true. Some of it possibly over analyzed, we can personally thank the government, for that everything that comes out of people's mouth nowadays. They say it's nothing more than a conspiracy, according to them.  A distraction tactic just to blow smoke up your ass about some useless subject or topic that isn't relevant to the real issues of our country.   The real crimes is paid f****** felons and cons doing they're dirty work for them.  However Mike is far from paranoid.  He's probably spent the majority of his life looking over his shoulder and so it progressively gotten worse as time has gone on. The time that Mike refers to, is what we grew up in.  People were tight, we were loyal, we knew what it meant to have one another's backs. We fought literally to the death, for family, and friends. An eye for an eye.  We believed you take one of ours, we take one of yours, and that's how it worked.  They had us thinking it was a vicious cycle, but now we can look back and say that we fought the good fight, we stood for what, and who we loved!

OSAMA BIN LADIN ENTERED THE LIONS DEN!

Many will start to ask why I continually entertained the OSAMA fool?  I've said it a million times before.  We all start off innocent.  We all have a story.  Even the criminals!  I sat day after day, with this Osama an unusual yet familiar person, I listened to him cry about his life, his fuck ups, his addiction, everything was always him, him, him, him!

I also kept going back because I wasn't quite sure if it was the person I had truly met. Thee Osama Bin LADIN himself. The picture they painted for us in the media, was some older guy in a turban.  You would never guess that this Mike, or Osama that I know would be a terrorist that sent planes into the twin towers. 

He also suffers a split personality disorder. A Dr Jeckyl or Mr Hyde perssona. Is that another made up excuse that the doctors allowed, so human beings can use it in court in an attempt to plead temporarily insane? Especially when heinous crimes got COMMITED?

   I can tell you this much about Mike/Osama everyone around him talks about how intelligent he is. Truth be told, he's intelligent enough to know exactly what he's doing.

 Will I give him the credit of being actually intelligent and smart?  No I won't.  He's actually nothing more than a little cry baby bitch that doesn't always get his way.  He couldn't whip his way out of the wet paper bag if the flies were attacking him.  He can definitely put up a good front around people that are physically smaller than him, but when it comes push to shove he truly is nothing more than a fucking moronic, murdering, pedophile little bitch who cries about cars that follow him!  Did you really think the feds would just wander away after your mass killing of innocent people?

What's the matter Mikey you have a feeling that the freaking script is about to be flipped? You're fucking right it is! You killed multiple fucking people.  You ruined lives, not only of the United States citizens, but of your own fucking people also!   A piece of shit that rapes children! A piece of shit that murders people, and eats them!  A boy who makes empty promises to people who have been trafficked, raped, beaten, mentally, physically.  Just to leave them high and dry all over again.  Fuck me, fuck all the bitches!  You let your family down, your wife and kids.  That alone should make you want to kill yourself.  Your memoir was definitely wrote, by yours truly.  It's already viral.  As america has watched this shit show daily.  cameras were implanted in my corneas.  The feds and everyone knows, your every admission, and every other criminals in that house.  You already knew that though didn't you?  I could have gotten you the opportunity to go home, and see your granddaughter, but as I said murderers, and pedos, and cannibals, don't deserve to be around any other type of person, other than their own kind.  So Mikey wannabe Harbour, you go directly to jail, you do not pass go, you do not collect any more hoes.  Hoes are for heroes not zeros!  

Oh and by the way "my God" sent you a message. Oddly enough whether you like it or not we share the same God. You and I are actually very similar creatures.  The things you proclaim you want and value in life are the things the Bible told you to want.  

However you are gay, and that's okay! You prefer women that look like gentlemen.  There's actually nothing wrong with that, but you do that because you fear coming out of the closet.  I now know that a gay man can't get hard even with a beautiful woman.  As humans we don't get a pick and choose what we are attracted to, or whom we fall in love with.  God doesn't get to control that either, he made us as individuals with freedom and choice.  Yes man and woman were indeed created two create child, but it wasn't to taboo for us to be with the same sex.  God wouldn't have made our genitals tingle in the presence of someone of the same sex, if he didn't want us being intimate with them.  In the event we were attracted to them.  God would have control over that wouldn't he?  According to your dumb ass theories.  If he supposedly has control over the bullets that escape from men pulling triggers on guns, he should be able to control our anatomy as well correct?  Mr Mikey dumbass dyke!

My bad, let me apologize.  I don't really want to sit here and call you names, but people like you really fucking anger me, and I feel you deserve to be called the demeaning names that society has cast on good queers, good lesbos, good faggots, good dykes. good people just in general.

 People in general shouldn't be made fun of for anything! Not race, color, gender, choice of sexuality, their financial situation, etc.  

The only people that deserve to be demeaned are the ones who hurt others.  Continuing your abusive past, isn't an excuse.  You chose to keep on hurting others, instead of changing the path of the horrific karmic wrath.  As you have often heard me say. Do unto others, as you would have them do unto you. Yes you were taught to be abusive, mean, and to be a killer, and a rapist, and a pedophile, but as we grow we have the opportunity to also change that aspect of ourselves, and if I can do it anybody on this fucking planet can!  After all look what I got for a mother!  I may have followed in her footsteps of being an addict, and I may not be the best mom, but I fucking protect them at all cost!  My buyer Stanley, who was an abusive, murdering, fuck!  However I didn't continue on that path. I flipped the script on the entire planet! 

So as much as you brought me to tears, and how your story broke my heart.  I seen the passion that laid within the man that once was, the husband, the father, the now grandfather.  All of that is gone, done, and taken away, for the safety of your children, for the safety of your grandchildren, for the safety of the United States, and the surrounding countries, and even the aliens in outer space.  I know you're hoping to die but guess what?  I got to be the fly on the wall that sends you to the prison halls!

The fucking end!

-KARMA IZZA NOT GIVING EVEN YOU A PASS - 

PS - MANY ARE GOING TO ASSUME THAT I FELL IN LOVE WITH MIKE/OSAMA YOUR RIGHT I DID.  LIKE IT SAYS I FELL IN LOVE WITH WHAT HE COULD HAVE BEEN, WHAT HE ASPIRED AND WANTED TO BE.  THIS IS ALMOST THE PERFECT ENDING TO ANY MOVIE.  I PROVED MY POINT TEN FOLD. EVERY CRIMINAL, EVEN THE WORST CRIMINALS HAVE A HORRIFIC STORY. THEY STILL HAVE A HEART, THEY STILL HAVE A SOUL, THEY STILL HAVE FEELINGS. THE PROBLEM IS...

 IS THAT THEY NEVER CONSIDERED ANYBODY ELSE'S. UNFORTUNATELY, THEY WERE TAUGHT EARLY ON IN LIFE SELFISHNESS AND GREED. THEY WERE TAUGHT NOT TO CARE, OR NOT TO HAVE A HEART, AND IF YOU DON'T HAVE A HEART KILL OTHERS AND EAT THEIRS.  ALL OF THIS IS TRULY GENUINELY FUCKED UP AND SAD, AND I HATE THAT THIS IS WHAT THIS WORLD HAS COME TO.

ODDLY ENOUGH I PROBABLY WILL GO SEE OSAMA IN PRISON.  WHY? AS YOU MAY WATCH THIS UNFOLD OR MAYBE YOU WON'T,  I DON'T KNOW, IN SO MANY WORDS OSAMA HAS BASICALLY SAID THAT I HAVE HELPED HIM GROW, AND I HONESTLY BELIEVE HIM. ON SOME LEVEL.

EVEN WHEN PEOPLE GO TO PRISON, NO MATTER HOW HORRIFIC THEIR CRIME IS.  REHABILITATING THEM BACK TO SOME SORT OF NORMALCY IS IMPORTANT FOR THEM, FOR THEYRE FAMILIES. ETC.  I TRULY BELIEVE THAT'S WHAT SHOULD BE DONE. MAYBE THEY DON'T FULLY DESERVE REHABILITATION.  HOWEVER THEIR KIDS DO, AND THEIR FAMILIES DO. 

WE HAVE ALWAYS PUT CRIMINALS AWAY IN PRISON NEVER THINKING ABOUT THEIR FAMILIES OR THEIR CHILDREN AND HOW IT AFFECTS THEM. HAS ANYONE EVER STOPPED TO THINK THAT THIS CONTINUING PATTERN IS PARTIALLY THE SYSTEM'S FAULT FOR DIVIDING FAMILIES THE WAY THAT THEY HAVE. SOME PEOPLE BEEN PUT IN PRISON ON BOGUS CRIMES AND BULLSHIT AND YANKED FROM THEIR FAMILY.  THIS CONTINUING TO BE A REVOLVING DOOR CAUSING THEIR KIDS TO GROW UP THE EXACT SAME WAY.

THINK ON THAT SUBJECT FOR A LITTLE WHILE. I'M REAL CURIOUS TO HEAR WHAT PEOPLE'S THOUGHTS ON IT MIGHT BE.

OBVIOUSLY AFTER SOME TIME IF YOU SEE THAT THEY'RE TRULY IS NO CURE.  JUST LIKE ANY OTHER ANIMAL THEN MAYBE THE DEATH PENALTY SHOULD BE RE-ENACTED EVERYWHERE THROUGHOUT THE WORLD.

WELL THERE YOU HAVE IT FOLKS MIKE HARBOR AKA OSAMA BIN LADEN WANTED HIS STORY WROTE IT MAY NOT BE A 300 PAGE BOOK BUT IT'S THE GIST OF HIS STORY.  STAY BLESSED EVERYONE!